adminLet me introduce you to my friend- Anxiety. She might be bffs with you too. If so, I am sorry- she’s a really big bitch.
Anxiety and me have had a close, ever present relationship since my late middle school years. She has caused me to mentally spiral out of control many times, and it’s no surprise she relishes in it. (I told you she was a bitch). I have been on medication to keep her quiet for some time, I still struggle despite the medicine. Anxiety, you are apart of me- I realize that you might never pack up and leave, but I try to suppress you as much as I can.
I thought I would write this post because the other day, out of nowhere I felt like I was unforgettable. By this I mean that people move on, forget about me and my existence and never look back. Let me explain. I know I am not forgettable but this is what this bitch does. My friend Anxiety will pop up when I am doing things and make these thoughts present. Anxiety comes at the most inconvenient of times. Does your anxiety do this too? She just says, “Oh, you’re having a great time- let me just come shake things up in a shitty way!” Or this is just me? Sometimes I am able to listen to music and make the thoughts go away. IF this is the case, I won’t reach out to people because I feel valiant. Other times- it takes a lot more effort.
Here is how my anxiety presents itself.
Restless legs
Inability to focus
Low moods/energy
Staring off into space
Nail biting or picking
Lip biting
Since Anxiety and I have been friends for so long, I have come up with some methods that work for me to shut her up. I need help though, I tend to try to reach out to friends but then I start to think maybe they have better things to do, or they are burdened enough with me. (fuck you Anxiety) Sometimes I won’t be able to understand why I am freaking out but once I am able to process- we can talk about it
Here is how I cope, try to cope or how you can help me cope.
How I cope on my own
Watch a lot of light-hearted Netflix
Listen to music
Cry if I need too
Clean
Take a shower
Drink a hot drink
Read
Message someone
If I message you/ you’re physically with me
Don’t tell me what I should and shouldn’t do- Just listen
Empathize with me, you don’t understand why I freak out, but you do understand me
Send me funny videos
Just let me restless legs happen- I will stop when I feel like my energy has been released- let the anxiety attack pass through me. It will stop
If I need to leave the space for a few min, remind me to go to the bathroom or go with me and take a walk
Bring me a hot drink
Hugs, I love hugs
Check in with me a few days after if I have messaged you
